I Will Always Return...!!

u wanna knw how it happened..u knw how she changed ma life..if u rembr, on Feb 24th'09 I posted a BloG..in tht I mentioned wat al I did in early 2004...5...6....7 etc...te tot left ma mind ages ago but trustin some1's really tuff fa me..u knw wat, I trust a few....ma galfrnd,family,rajeez & now te chennai gal..she's within me n she's tht close..sometimes I even think tht even if te whole world is against me, ma chennai frnd'll b by ma side who I can trust 101%...but I've nvr told her I trust her a lot....also I didn stop wit tht, I kept troublin her a lot n asked for many chemicals(tis is a code)...I asked her to send'em via mail..she did jus for me....I asked for diluted chemical 1st but later on asked for highly concentrated chemicals but yet she gave me...more than twice she gave me live experiment of concentrated chemical...do u knw if any frnd'll do tis...I tel u NONE wud...
later I asked maself, 'aren u takin advantage of her? tis isnt rite..she's jusa kid n'll not knw te consequences..u must b responsible....'
but I replied 'no...tis is more than love...mere watchin chemical'll nvr've an impact...whos gonna watch ma kid, 1ly I can...she's ma cut lil kid..I knw her...I'll b wit her'
 moreover wen I went ter to meet her on Oct'09, I didn make a wrong step to touch her...I knw...but I will always retun wit mischievous tots n  sometimes I get tots n wanted to b alone wit her for hrs but I haven told her til now....she'll unstd me even if I tel ma feelins but I don wan her to feel tht way...may b a time'll come wher we both'll unstd...
Im mischief n I sometimes have love diluted wit lust but don wan to tel her, u knw....I believe tht mental stability in te relation "Frndship" nvr gets spoiled even if tey had slept...I don wan tose things...she's ma kid..I wanna lay on her lap n I wan her to ruffle ma hair n I wanna sleep on her lap...wanna kiss ma kid..wanna watch te chemicals really....I've more love..I always believe tht I can give her a lot o happiness than any1 on earth cud...I trust me for tht...she's too kool pair for me....I always think tht she'll nvr mistake me cos 1ly she unstds me perfectly..in tht way Im highly fortunate..
Thank God for tis...Thank You Lord...
I aint sure how long tis is gonna last..I keep tellin her tht Im gonna leave her n she feels handicapped...but apparently its gonna b me who'll b greatly n highly disappointed if she's gone...I need to make ma mind set to stand alone even witout tis chennai gal...I gotta prepare for tht....but til ten I wan to b wit her al te time but tht aint possible...
lets c...Life's brot me to tis extent n lets c how far it can take me to...even witout ma chennai frnd...

Nothing I've Ever Known

Im really impressed abt maself fa wat I'm n for wat I've...I've been maintainin tis BloG as ma Personal Diary n've nvr shown to nobody..in fact, none knws tht I've a BloG..but it really acts as a pain killer as wel te frnd cos I share everythin wit it...
I said I wont talk abt te frnd I've @chennai...te chennai gal..her name is |>/~!-/@..can u identify?! she's too close to me...I'm sometimes abnormal abt gals..I hate'em to te core but she really act as an exception cos she nvr mistakes me n unstds me a lot...even sometimes than ma galfrnd...she's almost best..if I had seen her earlier I wud've married her...but to make sure tht she must not fal in luv wit me (te otherwise) n if she had a lot o expectations ten she'll b disappointed...but I've told her thou but she's stil a lil kid...but nothin I've knwn clearly abt gals...
so I always say I'm a 'passin cloud' but she hates tht word..I knw wel tht it hurts her a lot...even I cant tolerate wen she's hurt by ma words..I writh in pain but wat to do to make her stay away from ma drift?
but she'll soon b ok..its me who I've to ctrl...she's too carin for me, u knw?! I shudn've talked abt her now but I jus wanna let out te feel I've for her...
sometimes ma galfrnd mistakes me but so for I've nvr been mistaken by te chennai gal..1ly I mistake her...but she nvr loses her ctrl she's always polite to me..she, in fact've molded ma life..yeah..u wanna knw how..wait i'll tel u later...
til then bye from
-Valiant Venkat

Flying in a Blue Dream

I wrote ma CWA exams in June'09 but didn make it...I failed..tht gave me a lot o energy..I was jobless til I got in BHEL...I studied..In fact i was afraid of studying cos I failed..Again God helped me makin it easier for me...an old frnd of mine came here to write his CA exams..he n I wer really intimate n he motivated me a lot..te bottom-line is tht u need to've a satisfaction watever u do...result nvr matters..u r te guy to judge urself..no one n especially not an UNKNOWN can judge u...I regained ctrl over maself n studied while I was workin..I wrote ma exams wit ease n wrote totally 11 exams n I was kool....
now life's goin wel wit ma work n routine...happy wit wat I've got now nwaitin for te results..I'm an DCM , so come wat may I'll stand by it n catch up wit it soon...I usually say "Get rich r die tryin" n by te words 1 day r te other I WILL BE A CWA....
Everythin goes wel....Im flyin in a blue dream....
I'm in love wit a gal now..she's too gud for me..I love her to te core but nvr told her...she loves me too n we've planned to marry in a few years...I'm glad wit it...The Lord nvr lets me down.."He's - Always With Me & With You "
I feel maself te Happiest Man (occasinally)...I'd love to b...
I'm bloggin today cos i got time..I've got nothin spl today..may b'll b bac wit somethin new later...
Im postin everythin here cos its absolute confidential..none shud knw abt it @any cost...so many months've gone since u erased ur past posts but dont tis..its imp to u boy...