I Will Always Return...!!

u wanna knw how it happened..u knw how she changed ma life..if u rembr, on Feb 24th'09 I posted a BloG..in tht I mentioned wat al I did in early 2004...5...6....7 etc...te tot left ma mind ages ago but trustin some1's really tuff fa me..u knw wat, I trust a few....ma galfrnd,family,rajeez & now te chennai gal..she's within me n she's tht close..sometimes I even think tht even if te whole world is against me, ma chennai frnd'll b by ma side who I can trust 101%...but I've nvr told her I trust her a lot....also I didn stop wit tht, I kept troublin her a lot n asked for many chemicals(tis is a code)...I asked her to send'em via mail..she did jus for me....I asked for diluted chemical 1st but later on asked for highly concentrated chemicals but yet she gave me...more than twice she gave me live experiment of concentrated chemical...do u knw if any frnd'll do tis...I tel u NONE wud...
later I asked maself, 'aren u takin advantage of her? tis isnt rite..she's jusa kid n'll not knw te consequences..u must b responsible....'
but I replied 'no...tis is more than love...mere watchin chemical'll nvr've an impact...whos gonna watch ma kid, 1ly I can...she's ma cut lil kid..I knw her...I'll b wit her'
 moreover wen I went ter to meet her on Oct'09, I didn make a wrong step to touch her...I knw...but I will always retun wit mischievous tots n  sometimes I get tots n wanted to b alone wit her for hrs but I haven told her til now....she'll unstd me even if I tel ma feelins but I don wan her to feel tht way...may b a time'll come wher we both'll unstd...
Im mischief n I sometimes have love diluted wit lust but don wan to tel her, u knw....I believe tht mental stability in te relation "Frndship" nvr gets spoiled even if tey had slept...I don wan tose things...she's ma kid..I wanna lay on her lap n I wan her to ruffle ma hair n I wanna sleep on her lap...wanna kiss ma kid..wanna watch te chemicals really....I've more love..I always believe tht I can give her a lot o happiness than any1 on earth cud...I trust me for tht...she's too kool pair for me....I always think tht she'll nvr mistake me cos 1ly she unstds me perfectly..in tht way Im highly fortunate..
Thank God for tis...Thank You Lord...
I aint sure how long tis is gonna last..I keep tellin her tht Im gonna leave her n she feels handicapped...but apparently its gonna b me who'll b greatly n highly disappointed if she's gone...I need to make ma mind set to stand alone even witout tis chennai gal...I gotta prepare for tht....but til ten I wan to b wit her al te time but tht aint possible...
lets c...Life's brot me to tis extent n lets c how far it can take me to...even witout ma chennai frnd...