Things Have Been Worse and We've Always come Thru..!

Everytime i talk you ask me why i end up crying its coz all the while i was telling yes to your desires i had


a feeling within me as if am cheating.desire and reality is different and i prefer to follow the latter.
[10/05/2010 1:22pm]
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Ennada solla soldra ne vera, naan sonnadu enakkae pudikla,ne vera tirumba solla soldra
[07/04/2010 3:44pm]

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Naan avlo sonnaenla,podinu po vaendidana...plan flop,poda
[07/04/2010 3:37pm]

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ne enna marry panna epdi irukumnu think pandruken...kids,2 cute lil ones,big eyes {specific abt blue


eyes}...night time enjoy some horror movies...aprom...fights...wont be good without it...u can win,no


probs...enaku un mom donno wat seem to have got some likin for her...if i think its always lik she is very


friendly 'n carin o sorts...ur sis must be real fun to be with, tot o her always reminds o crackin jokes...i


don mind doing all de household chores..hmmm
[19/12/2009 10:20pm]

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Appo yaar enna sonnalum enaku unna pudikum,avlodhan
[20/01/2010 6:53pm]
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Krish made me feel really secured to share whatever i felt but i have never met anyone in my life who had


given me that freedom.you told me about flirting,i was aware of that but i was more concerned and happy


about the affection i was getting rather than that.none of my friends have had that concern for me,may be


its my fault.i realised if you leave i wont be sharing anything with anyone, for the simple reason that i


don trust them as i trust you.part of the reason why i couldn share or talk as you expect is the fear of


hurting my own feelings again as also that noone has been genuinely interested in listening to me,i wasn


sure whether you want to.i realise very well that i don have any true or trust worthy friends,if you


leave.coz when i think of talking to someone noone comes to my mind than you.i value honesty and


being trust worthy for others and i need a friend who is like that.you have both these qualitites that i


have found in none other i have met so far. i will be really 'proud' to have known you for these many


months and will be glad if this friendship continues,but then i need to consider your feelings too.i care


more for the love i got from you and nothing else matters.i will certainly msg if i have to say something


more.right now i feel it was a bit selfish of me to have asked you to give a day of yours to say what i think


and feel,am sorry about that,am a bit slow strater
[02/03/2010 5:49am]

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I dont need anyones friendship, at the first place. we know each other quite well i suppose.so a


friendship,is possible.i don have silly or concrete answer for your question.no expectations too.
[30/04/2010 2:26pm]

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mambalam,ch-33.ph:24740454,e-mail:NVIJAYSIVA@YAHOO.COM
[30/12/2009 6:25pm]

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Leave Out All The Rest and Leave Me..|

certain things in life can take u thou sometimes u've ctrl over ur emotions..one o te case happened to me...it was a bit o hurtin scenario but ma ego let it play te role...I think Im ok by now but te only thing tht bothers me now is I don knw hw lng'll I stay wit tis decision cos I knew tis 1 is vulnerable..werever I go n watever I do, I leave ma mark n every1'll say Krish was here...I leave ma mark tht ma tot'll linger in ur mind for many days...u al knw abt tis chennai gal...we broke up...yeah...
o course te fault lies wit me cos I had a lot o imaginations...she again misunstd me n said she'll've no regrets if I left her...cos she said she treats me one among te boys she's movin wit...wel I aint tht kinda guy..tht was kinda offensive..I cant take tht...Im not disappointed cos ma expectations o being wit her alone is ruined, No not at al...Im quite upset cos she said she treats me lik an ordinary man..
hey guys Im not tht kinda guy...Im Krish..The dude...The DCM..Krish DTA...Krish does wat he wants n when he wants n can none tel him what Im, Who Im, Hw Im r any damn thing...I do n leave out the rest n've No Regrets...
even now I break up wit her n I've No Regrets for it...te reason Im upset is cos she misunstd me..thts al..I knw it happens in life..but since Im too a rational human being I need some time to digest certain things lik tis...I aint cryin r whinnin r mournin abt anythin...I took te decision wit al ma senses ctrl n I always knw wat Im doin...
I told her tht te moment u told me u treat me lik others I said I cant stay wit u n move wit u...wel u dont trust me n now u speak lik a real woman...so, at tis moment I can say lets break up n r u sure u've no regrets...she said yes...wel then I said, the decision I've taken momentarily is vulnerable thou but I wish I stand by te words I pronounced...so if in case I've a change in ma mind I'll let u knw it...bye take care n al te best...


I hope I'll stand by te words n Im sure tis wont hurt me anymore nor I'll brood...Im clear wit me n ma decision...n now I'll Leave Out All The Rest...|
one thing...I don want ppl n I wished I nvr had'em...I wud lik to request every1 around me 2 things..
>Dont Ever Trust ME
>Leave Me Alone r get hurt

Words to My First Born..!

everythin was fine except ma mind..ter has been several lingerin repressed unsatisfied tots in ma mind..I've noticed it n knw wat te desires r...but te fact is tht I haven strd to pt effort yet cos I think it aint tht necessay..but as days grow old ma wishes've strd to consume me n Im in insanity...ter r jus 2 ways to get rid o'em..one is, to get satisfied wit te wishes n take steps to get'em r te other, to realise it matters nothin for now n al tht matter is studies n job as o now...

I've even tot of it but I say to maself 'wats te use o doin so chum...u gotta do somethin tht others've already did a million times..' 'however, u've not done tht yet so y not do it?'
'wil I b ok after doin it in te either ways?'
'y not? I wudn say certainly, but ter r plenty o chances for u to b definitely ok..moreover u cant jus say how'll it b witout takin any steps further n thinkin witout knwin wats in it...always rembr wat I say chum...n tis is gonna b the words to ma first born...

"Don't judge a thing until you know what is inside it...Never give it up...NO.
Life is just an open road and you keep rolling on and on and on...Who knows where you are going?"

may b u'll b ok..it cud b easy fo u cos u te man who doesn've regrets fo anythin so y not jus try fo tis..plan it n do accordingly n wen te rite time knocks jus plunge into action...Nvr stop then...every plan we put is vulnerable...some wit low intensity n some high, but watever it is...jus say watever te prob is...

"That is 'A' problem and not 'THE' problem"

sure u must unstd tis...it shudn b hard fo u... make it tis a better than ur prev day..everyday jus march on..u can do it but any means necessary..thinkin is jusa waste o tim...desicion nvr goes wrong..wen we put into action, te process mite go wrong...a perfectly planned schedule seldom fails...
everythin is subject to change, ur frnds,ur environment,family,ur boss,ur job,ur everythin but 2 things nvr change ma boy..I mean Nvr...
1-urself, unless u let go off u
2.The Lord Himself

basically trust on u than on God...God helps those who helps themselves...u can do it buddy...try to come out o it n b a better man...nothin is gonna affect u..nothin in tis world...march on...heads up...

next time come wit some gud news r no bad news...

Is There Love in Space..?

tis month I'll b takin leave as many as I can...te man in charge fo industrial trainees @ BHEL called up fo me n said tht even for regular employees themselves r eligible only fo 2 ratifications a month n how dare u put 7 ratifications prev month, on Apr...I said 'ter r some executives who knws it n I took it only with prior permission n if ya don trust me or'em wel nvr mind convert it into loss o pay I don even wan a single penny for tis...' he calmed down n asked who signed ma attendance...I said it was an executive higher authority o te guy himself n told him he cant do nothin abt it...he was intimidated n jus said
 'wel, try not to do tis in future...' ten I said to maself 'keep askin it sir...u need to...u've te privilege n te rite...u can ask n u shud...but complyin wit ur 'rules' aint ma task n its @ma disposal'
tht prob its jusa tingle o pepper...back to big...abt ma chennai gal...tis blog shud've named after chennai gal cos I've spoken abt her a lot than I shud usually do...

 I knw I've given tis blog only to her n I think she doesn c tis often..I have hidden some o blogs fo many days n disclosin it n expect she wont c...even if she sees it aint gonna affect me a bit...I don knw y I cant trust her...she says she isnt lovin me..wel she luvs me jus as a frnd...she says she doesn expect from me nothin...she says she wants tis frndship to continue...she says she wont regret much if tis is breached....she's not more than a frnd...I said she isnt expectin anythin cos she'll b disappointed wit her expectations n thts y she's afraid...but she denies it...cos last Oct I touched her waist n felt nothin abt it..later tht nite she said she'll let me touch anywher on her te next she sees me...I visited chennai more than thrice after tht but didn meet her...if lust was in ma mind I wud've done tht ages ago...r ma lust has taken me jus now? r is it love? I wudn say its lust..its ma love!! fo sure!! but tis time wen I asked her whether she'll spend sometime wit me she said she cant commit..she's 'busy'...she said she doesn've anymore expectations abt anythin...she used to cal me 'hubby' may b twice r thrice so far...she even wished to marry me if I wasn committed...I said tht the same words... but now she's jus backin off but I don..te reason she says is tht she's now clear n clean...I standby ma own words n I aint backin off...I said I didn trust her words n her mind set; now, n said she's cheatin herself now..she says 'if u think tht way ok, u think, but Im clear'oh she's so damn adamant n stupid...nvr mind love can boil u to do insane moves on te earth...is ther love in space n do aliens suffer tese?

 ma presumptions 've nvr gone wrong especially wit ma intimate frnds n beloved ones...I said she needs to talk to ma eyes...hope she'll...once I meet her personally Im sure tht I'll let her n maself knw wats in her mind...Im waitin fo te rite time to knock...

I hope I'll nvr let maself down...If chennai gal sees tis, nvr mind, te Lord Himself cant stop Krish from knwin wats in her mind...Im sure I'll find it n write in ma BloG...

"He who says "I've No expectations" we say he's content n satisfied.
Facts Remains behind that he cheats himself.
Is it contentment or a fear of loss?"